Sunday, December 21, 2014

Week 16 | December 15-December 21, 2014

Hello everyone! Happy Chanukah/Holidays from Jerusalem :) This week was a short and sweet week in which I spent most of my time with friends and family, relaxing and enjoying the holiday spirit, indulging in too many sufganiot (tradition donuts with a variety of fillings eaten on Chanukah). I feel the need right now to thank God and publicly recognize how peaceful and calm things have been in Israel in the past two weeks. There was one attack in the West Bank (a terrorist through acid on a family of 5, no one was critically or fatally injured), and many more plans were foiled (including a big suicide bombing in which a Palestinian women planned to disguise herself as a pregnant religious Jew and explode herself in a big crowd over Chanukah). I feel like when things are bad, we dedicate a lot of time to thinking about and reflecting upon tragedy, but when things are good, no one ever stops to say "wow, we are so lucky right now!" In a book my cousin Rachel lent me this week by Chief Lord Rabbi (did I get that right?) Jonathan Saks, he talks about how the fact that we focus on the bad stuff isn't bad, but good. Humans always focus on the outliers, on what does not fit, so the fact that we focus on the bad means that the world is primarily a good, moral, upstanding place. He gave an example of showing a room full of people a big white piece of paper with a single black dot and asking them what they see. The vast majority see a black dot, not the huge white paper, because ultimately, we see what doesn't fit, what isn't right. The fact that murder, theft, and corruption shocks us is because we are so accustomed to honesty and kindness. I thought that was an excellent point.  During this holiday season, a holiday which represent hope in the darkest of times (both literally and figuratively, as today is the winter solstice, as well as a time of great tension here in Israel), it is comforting and inspiring to see the country come alive and light up for Chanukah.

A man lighting his menorah outside his house. It is ideal to light the menorah in a place where it is visible in order to publicize the miracle, and therefore, most Israelis light in small glass boxes outside their homes. The streets are alight with candle light for 8 nights. 
Israel, and Jews in general, never cease to amaze me. I remember staring ahead at a huge expanse of grass in Poland, realizing I was standing on the graves of 900,000 of my fellow Jews, and feeling humbled by our great loss, but in contrast, inspired by how far we've come since. I remember standing in that field (the former death camp Treblinka), wondering how a people that endured what is arguably the greatest tragedy in history could bounce back from that, establish their own state, and become the thriving, upward-bound, ever-improving people we are today. What other people can say that they survived the greatest mass genocide in human history and, in 70 years, have already achieved so much? I don't know why it is that we're able to do that, when so many other nations, religions, and countries have faltered and fallen over so much less. Our strong communities, held together by strong values and an eternal set of ethics and behaviors? Our commitment to upholding the word of God? Our emphasis on education? Our love and respect for one another? The grace of God? I wish I knew. But I'm so impressed and grateful to be part of a people that is capable of so much, that can transform tragedy into beauty and accomplishment, that can make light of the hardest situations, make jokes at the most trying times, and continue to improve and grow in spite of the world around them.

A couple of days ago we lit the first candle of Chanukah. At 4:15pm that day, I got on a bus home, as it is a commandment to light the menorah in one's own home or sleeping place. The bus was packed, and in typical Israeli fashion, everyone was yelling at each other, pushing each other hostilely, and elbowing for more room. Still, all the elderly people were given seats, and the atmosphere was cheery and light. I couldn't help but wonder why the bus was so packed-and yet so jolly at this time of day. Then it occurred to me that everyone, religious or not, secular or Ultra-Orthodox, was going home to light their menorahs. What an amazing feeling it was to be pushed around on that sweaty bus as we all rushed home to light our menorahs as soon as we could. What a great feeling it is to be a part of a people that is all united by one code of common practice. When I think about my greatest fears for Israel-it's not the Arabs or the UN or our public opinion in the secular world-we have always had enemies and always will, and non have successfully destroyed us. It's our treatment of one another, Jew to Jew, that I worry most about, a point my aunt Lori brought up that rings so true to me. When I hear about Jews wronging other Jews-the Ultra-Orthodox throwing stones at cars on Shabbat, Jews cheating in business, our inability to agree on so many things when we share so much more than we don't, that's when the real worry sets in. Our temple 2,000 years ago was destroyed because of "free hate", the fact that the Jewish people could not get along. I hope and pray we never face the same problem again. And when I think about that bus ride, despite all the Middle Eastern hostility and petty anger, I think we can move past that, we can get along, and instead of free hate, we can practice free love (not in the 60s way). Love you all a lot lot lot. Rebecca

Sunday, December 14, 2014

Week 15 | December 6- December 14, 2014

Happy Sunday! Here's a look back at the last week here in Israel:

 

 

^we made menorahs for Hanukah on Sunday night. It was so fun (and the first time I've done this since like second grade!)










 
^we went away for the weekend to a random city in the Negev (desert). It was a very interesting and different way to live life than is lived in central Israel. 



 

^Hanukah presents I made for everyone in my school and teachers. Can't wait to give all 85 out!

 

^^successfully crocheted my first Kippa :) This one's for you, Daddy 

So it's the holiday season, which in Israel means it's just Hanukah season, and I feel the impending holiday so closely. The lights, the donuts, and the general cheer in spite of the darkness and the cold (okay, it's not actually cold, it's Israel cold, ya know?) It's getting to that point in the year where I need to start, in some way, thinking about next year. It's weird to be 19-this is the first year in my entire life where I feel like it's actually my life. In a lot of ways it's amazing. I decide what I want to do to a large extent-where to go, what to eat, how to behave and act without my parents around. If I want coffee, I drink coffee. If I want to sleep in, I can sleep in. If I want to buy myself something, I buy it. In a lot of other ways it's so stressful-it's hard to realize that I am now in a position where I can make real decisions about the course of my life. I know this is only the beginning of many, many big decisions, and I know I'm so young, but it's definitely a weird feeling. In other news-when I look back at the last 3.5 months, I realize how much I've learned, both in and out of the classroom-how to crochet, how to take buses, how to say curse in hebrew, how to take buses in Israel, how to be independent and take care of myself, how to clean a duvet cover, how to be a good roommate. I'm not even halfway done here and I feel like even if I went home now, I'd have learned and gained so much. Right now I'm looking forward to Hanukah-I can't wait to give out the presents that I made for everyone and spend time celebrating the first Jewish holiday in two months. I have so many exciting things on the calendar, and I can't wait to share them all with you guys. So much love---Rebecca

Friday, December 5, 2014

Weeks 13-14 | November 24-December 5, 2014

Hi all! I am so sorry for my absence in the last week, things have been very busy, and for some reason I couldn't get it together to blog about last week. So here's what's been happening in the last 10 or so days:


 

^^^our Thanksgiving meal-my friend's mom was here so she hosted us all for a delicious and fun Thanksgiving in her apartment in Modiin. 










^^^FaceTiming with the family back home because Thanksgiving wasn't the same without them :(




 
^^^and some more Thanksgiving pictures 


 

^^^at a high school reunion on Saturday night








 

^^^happy birthday to me! I turned 19 on Monday  




^^^ Random moments throughout the week-learning how to crochet kippas (my second one is way better, that was my first!!!), learning Torah with my special needs girls, and visiting Kever Rachel, the burial site of our matriarch Rachel. 

If I had to sum up the past two weeks, I can only think of gratitude. In the two weeks since the Har Nof synagogue attack, the country has recovered and bounced back so amazingly. I am in awe of the way Israel works and feel so lucky to be a part of it. Yesterday we visited the site of the place where the matriarch Rachel is buried. Hanging in her grave is the wedding dress of Nava Apfelbaum, who went out for a pre-wedding coffee with her father and died alongside him in a suicide bombing that night. Her story feels especially prescient right now, and for some reason, I found myself crying beside her unused dress. I feel closer to Israel than I have ever felt before-a part of me is scared to go home for Passover because I have this strange and unexplainable feeling that Israel needs me. When I got home from Poland, I remember having lots of different feelings, cheifly among them, a confusion about why I had found it so meaningful and thought it was so important. I knew I had those feelings but didn't know why. But now I think I get it. Despite what has been happening in Israel, I know this is the only place in the world Jews belong. When I think about what happened to the Jews of Europe (and what is still happening-if you heard about the Jewish woman who was raped in front of her husband in what has been labeled a hate crime then you know what I mean) and all the Jews who lived before them and were persecuted and killed, I know without a doubt that we belong in Israel. This place is the home of our people and no matter how safe and secure we may feel in America or Australia or England or anywhere, all those countries will turn on us too, just like they always have. I think it took seeing the camps and the barbed wire and the decimation of an entire way of life for Jews in Poland, in contrast to the unity and beauty of Jews in Israel, in order to truly underhand that. Yes, life is not perfect for Jews in Israel, but at least we have each other and are in the land where we belong and are meant to be. Here , we don't need to be victims, here we can fight for our people and our land. XXOO RTS